Story: 48 Hours to Freedom
Authors: Ranger & Rolf
Couples: Joe/Chris, Matthew/Rolf
Warnings: Never, ever, EVER tell your brat to be good for 48 hours!
"Want to explain this to me?" Rolf asked sternly, holding out the
satellite bill.
Matthew dropped his eyes to the bill, and squirmed uncomfortably
under the razor sharp, ice cold glare Rolf was currently nailing him
with.
"You were away.......and there was nothing to do in the evenings-"
"How much does a pay per view cost Matthew?"
"Three dollars?"
"And twelve movies. You're the accountant; what does that come to?"
Matthew flushed. "Thirty six dollars...."
"We have STACKS of videos and DVDs, MARC has enough to start a
library and probably could have lent you most if not all of these, if
you'd been watching them at reasonable hours instead of the middle of
the night. And how much did this hockey game event cost?"
Matthew flushed even darker. "It was part of the commonwealth games
coverage-"
"How much?"
"Thirty dollars." Matthew admitted. Rolf handed him the bill.
"Sixty six dollars in THREE DAYS. That's probably more than we spend
on pay per view in three months!"
Matthew wanted to correct Rolf and say, probably SIX months, but he
didn't think that would help his case any.
"I'm sorry," he tried, putting the bill on the table.
"Do you think that saying you're sorry changes the fact that you
spent $66 of our money that didn't need spending?"
Matthew continued to squirm, hating the discussion.
"No, sir."
"I have half a mind to cancel your weekend hockey plans, because
that's a LOT of entertainment money right there," Rolf said sternly.
"Nooooooooooo!" Matthew said indignantly. "Don't do that, it's
opening night! Please!"
Rolf looked long and hard at Matthew, watching him slowly sink back
in the chair and adopt his injured puppy look.
"We can pay the bill, that's not the issue. It's just money that we
didn't need to spend, all done because you were bored and too lazy to
call Marc ahead of time for a movie. You will NOT order another
thing on that satellite without checking with me first, is that
clear?"
"Yes, sir," came the muffled reply.
"Look at me."
Matthew slowly raised up his eyes to meet Rolf's, finding them only
slightly less chilly.
"If you want to go to the hockey game this weekend, then you'd better
be on your BEST behaviour. I mean it."
Matthew almost let the smile come to the surface, but held it
back. "Yes, sir."
"Forty eight hours of absolute perfection." Rolf went on
sternly. "Otherwise you'll be having a VERY early night on Saturday
and I'll be going to the game alone. Clear?"
Crystal. Relieved beyond measure, Matthew managed a second, incredibly
sincere, "Yes sir."
48 hours was hardly any time at all. How hard could THAT be?
"Chris." Joe sat down on the edge of the bed, firmly pulling the
quilt back. "Up. That's the last time I'm going to ask."
"There's nothing we have to do." Chris said without moving. On his stomach,
arms wrapped around his pillow, his voice was muffled. Joe got hold
of the
pillow and pulled, relentlessly, until Chris relinquished it.
"There's plenty I want you to do. Get up, shower and dress for a
start. Then
we need to straighten the house out and you have homework to do. We
were
away two weeks, you have plenty of catching up to do, plus the paper
due on
Monday."
"The paper sucks." Chris said tonelessly. "School sucks."
He didn't have to add 'Life sucks'; Joe could hear it. They'd spent
almost
two weeks away, moving from the motel where they'd met up after
Chris's
initial run away, to the rivers and woodland another hundred miles
further
on. A quiet little village and a hotel where no one bothered them and
where
they'd spent the time walking, being close, talking. They'd had a
very hard
few days at first, but beyond that Chris had calmed, had seemed to
turn to
him and to be ready and prepared for the far harder struggle of
returning
home and to normality. And now, five days later, it was already clear
he
wasn't doing too well. Very sympathetic, Joe ran a hand through his
hair,
smoothing it back from his eyes, but pulled him upright.
"Shower please."
"Why?" Chris said angrily. Joe put him on his feet and swatted him
gently
towards the bathroom.
"Because I asked you to. And because it's impossible to make the bed
with
you in it."
Chris moved, slowly and very unwillingly.
At the moment he didn't want to do anything. It had taken persuasion,
encouragement and outright threats to get him to school on Monday
morning:
in the end Joe had forced him, hating the misery in his face but
knowing the
only way through this was to keep Chris within his familiar routine. He already felt lost and ungrounded: without their routine and his daily
round
of commitments and responsibilities, he'd rapidly lose all stability
of any
sort. Matthew, Michael, Marc, Todd, all of them had filled the
answermachine
with messages while they were away, and Eric had said that Michael and
Matthew had been waiting for Chris on Monday when he arrived at
school: a
protective phalanx that Chris had shaken off in minutes, shying away
from
them as he did from everyone else. The one phonecall his mother had
made had
elicited an outburst of fury so intense she hadn't called again, and
Joe,
who had spent the rest of the night trying to calm him down enough to
sleep
and knew the bitter grief under the anger, hadn't encouraged her to
try,
disabling the answermachine and answering all calls to the house
himself.
Chris didn't notice. Left to his own devices, Joe was fairly sure he
would
do what he'd done at other times when in Chris's volatile world, a
holocaust
occured. Stay in bed, or curl up on the sofa, block out the world and
hide
somewhere inside himself. And this was, in holocaust terms, pretty
much
Armaggedon.
Joe made the bed, listening to the shower run, then found clean
towels and
went into the bathroom, ready and prepared to hassle- gently and
firmly-
until his lover washed, dressed and shaved. Details were calming and
they
were things Chris habitually missed. Made to focus on the little
details,
the things that to him always seemed too small to be important, such
as WHAT
he ate, HOW the house was cleaned, WHEN he did homework- he would as
he
always did, gradually gain a sense of order and structure, he would
calm and
the loom of the big and the truly uncontrollable issues, if they
couldn't be
solved, would at least be shunted away.
"I'll be about an hour." Rolf said, shouldering into a jacket. "I
don't know
which store'll have the right size blades, but once I've got them we
can
start the mowing."
Matthew pulled a face. Rolf paused to fix him with a Look.
"SAINTLY. Remember? You've got a list of chores, I want to see a
sizeable
dent in it by the time I get back."
"Yes, sir," Matthew said quietly, waiting until he was SURE Rolf's
car had
left the driveway. Once that happened, he clicked his heels together
and
saluted. "Sir, yes, SIR!" Then he headed directly for the computer
to see
who might be connected. After checking his email, he turned on his
instant
messenger. He found Chris and Michael online, and both said hi at
the same
time.
Circa25: Matty?
TiggerMC: Hey!!! How is ya?
Circa25: Hating life. And you?
TiggerMC: About the same. Why you?
Circa25: Fucking paper due on Monday and Joe is driving me insane
about it. I was just asking Mike about it, and he thought you did one that
might work a few semesters ago. Something about Chrysler?
TiggerMC: Did one for managment, why?
Circa25: I need some help, what the hell do you think?
TiggerMC: Sec
Michaloeb: Say HI why don't you?
TiggerMC: I only have two hands, give me a minute!
Michaloeb: I have! How are you?
TiggerMC: Alright. Got a nice list of chores to do for his majesty
before
he returns with mower blades.
Michaloeb: Sounds like someone might be mowing later.....
TiggerMC: Yeah, and I have to be the little perfect angel. Growl.
Michaloeb: Perfect? You? I thought Rolf only gave you attainable
goals?
TiggerMC: REAL funny asshole. Drats.
Michaloeb: What?
TiggerMC: Chris just signed off. Didn't get to finish my
conversation with
him.
Michaloeb: Joe is being pretty strict with him. Did he ask you
about his
paper?
TiggerMC: Yeah. Not sure what he wanted.
Michaloeb: To copy, probably. I didn't have anything that would
work. Why
are you having to be an angel?
TiggerMC: Cos I kind of watched a few too many pay per views while he
was
away last weekend. He got the bill yesterday.
Michaeloeb: Ouch
TiggerMC: So its be angelic or bye bye to the game on Saturday.
Michaeloeb: You're kidding! It's the opening game of the season!
TiggerMC: TELL me about it!
Michaeloeb: So get offline and get through that chore list! Don't you
WANT
to see the game?
TiggerMC: DUH!
Michaeloeb: LOL MOVE idiot. It won't be half the fun anyway if you're
not
there. Go on, go do it. With a happy smile. And halo straight.
TiggerMC: Pllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllt :p :p :p :p
Michaeloeb: GO ON. Sheesh, anyone would think you hated hockey ;)
TiggerMC: Nah, just housework. Ok ok I'm gone. See ya ;)
Matthew disconnected with a sigh, but somewhat more cheerful. The
game WOULD
be good. Michael and Eric had tickets, Marc was swapping shifts to
make it
to the arena in time for the start of the game, Todd had bought season
tickets and made Stephen swear on his life that he'd escape from the
bar for
all the home games- it would be a great evening. The only people who
weren't
definitely going to be there, were Joe and Chris.
Matthew moved a cat off the kitchen floor and started to scrub it,
mind on
Chris. He'd been surprised- and very happy- to see Chris online. Joe
had
phoned a few times while they'd been away, each time to talk to Rolf
although the few times Matthew had made it to the phone first, Joe had
sounded cheerful enough and promised that Chris was fine, just tired
and
feeling very down. And since Rolf had taken the phone into the study
each
time, Matthew had no further clue what was going on. None of the
brats knew
what had happened the night that Chris and Joe went away and
curiosity was
driving them crazy.
Matthew, who had been home when Rolf went over to Joe's in response
to a
phone call, had been told Chris had gone missing. Rolf had phoned
again at
nine to say that he would be home very late and had returned well
after
midnight, saying nothing more than Chris had been found and
everything was
okay. He refused to be any more forthcoming than that no matter what
methods
of interrogation Matthew tried on him. Michael, who had been told
something
very similar by Eric, reported that Eric hadn't arrived home until
morning,
having spent the night in a motel somewhere up north. And that Joe
and Chris
had decided to go on and take an impromptu vacation. Which they all
agreed
was odd, although they could understand Joe and Chris both wanting
some time
out of town and alone together. And that had been the end of all
information.
Todd reported that Chris had phoned him briefly when he and Joe got
home,
that he sounded very quiet and Joe had called him off the phone
within a few
minutes. He hadn't wanted to talk at all about where he and Joe had
been and
why. And Matthew suspected that Rolf had seen Joe once or twice since
they
got home, but he'd been told- categorically by Rolf, as the others
had been
told by their partners- not to ask Chris questions if he DID see him,
and
not to call without permission. Which as yet hadn't been given. Matthew had
tried asking Rolf if Joe and Chris intended to come to the hockey,
but had
only got the answer that it was their decision and they'd have to
wait and
see.
Waiting and seeing was not one of Matthew's talents.
Cleaning on the other hand, while by no means a favoured activity, was
something he could be extremely thorough at once he settled to it. The
downstairs was gleaming by the time the phone rang and Matthew looked
up
from polishing the bannister with a glare towards it for the
interruption. The ungraciousness carried over into his voice despite his best
efforts when
he picked up the phone.
"Yes WHAT?"
"What bit your ass?"
Matthew's face lit up. "Chris! Sorry, I was working. How are you? WHERE are
you?"
"At home. And fine."
Matthew sat down at the foot of the stairs, hearing what Todd had
heard in
Chris's voice. He sounded tired. And very quiet.
"We missed you."
Chris didn't answer for a moment, then changed the subject. "What are
you
doing?"
"Cleaning." Matthew said derisively. "But since the hockey
opening is
only
two days away, I'm not about to do anything to annoy the wolf. Are
you going
to the game?"
"I don't know." Chris said without interest. "Probably not, Joe's
pretty
much playing house arrest at the moment."
Matthew hesitated, dying to ask why, but there was a certain delicacy
attached to hearing a certain tone amongst the brats. The tone that
meant
YES I'm in trouble and NO I don't want to talk about it. He wondered
again
if Chris was in trouble with Joe for running away. And if so, why
he'd run
away in the first place.
"What's with this paper?" he said, grabbing for the subject Chris
himself
had introduced on IM.
"It's one of the major ones where you have to write about a company,
what
they make, how they're organized for tax purposes, how the management
is
run, market share, I mean, everything but what toilet paper the CEO
uses. You remember that paper?"
"Yeah, that one sucked."
"With all the problems here, I'm having to do this on my own. I need
some
help."
"Sure. Whatever I can do."
"Can you give me your paper?"
Matthew hesitated a moment.
"I'd do the same for you, you know that," Chris said when the silence
grew a
bit longer.
"I don't know. It's ... It's cheating."
"No one would know. It's just this ONE time."
"Look, I really want to help....but -"
"But you could care less about your friend. I understand." The
phone went
dead.
"Damnit!" Matthew yelled angrily, slamming the phone down on the
stair next
to him. Chris was an expert in pushing his buttons: thirty seconds of
conversation and he was fuming. And he couldn't, in all good
conscience,
leave that conversation there. Chris was clearly having a hell of a
time and
in those kind of times, Matthew knew from experience, it wasn't easy
to
think before you spoke. Trying to take a few deep breaths and quell
his own
temper, he picked up the phone again and redialled.
It took Chris a moment to answer, and when he did he sounded so quiet
Matthew could barely hear him.
"Hello?"
"It's me." Matthew said shortly. "Do you want to discuss this or
do
you want
to yell at me?"
He heard Chris sigh. Then his voice again, still low and depressed.
"I CAN'T write the fucking thing. I really can't. I've got Joe all
over me,
WHEN are you going to study, WHY isn't the paper done yet, and I
can't even
read the bloody books. I just really need some help here."
"How about I give you my notes?" Matthew suggested, pity rapidly
overtaking
anger. "I'll help you do a plan too if you want, would that help?"
"Matt, I can't write it. I really, truly can't. You can give me the
plan for
each paragraph, I still won't be able to get it written." Chris took
a quick
breath and Matthew realised with a nasty shock that he was
crying. "Please,
just for this one time, give me the paper and let me copy it in, just
so
it's done and I don't fail the class. You know I wouldn't ask you for
any
other time or any other reason, it's due in on Monday- please. Your
paper's
a year old, no one's going to remember it, it isn't even the same
professor."
That was very probably true.
Matthew thought it over, aching for the catch in Chris's breathing and
becoming more convinced by the moment that something was horribly
wrong that
he wasn't being told about.
"You can't copy word for word." he said at last. "Change it where
you can. Ok?"
"Ok, thanks." Chris's sigh of relief was audible and
wrenching. "Thankyou,
you're saving my life. Can I come and get it now?"
"Where's Joe?"
"Here. But he's nagging me to death about seeing you guys, he won't
mind if
I'm out for half an hour."
"Ok, Rolf's out so it's a good time. I'll go find it for you."
"Thanks Matt. I'll see you in a minute."
Chris hung up, taking another deep breath of relief. The paper had
been
hanging over him like an axe since he first went back to school.
After three
years of school, Joe had him trained in a way his mother had never
attempted: he was more than used to Joe knowing his schedule, of
sitting
down nightly to do homework and of Joe checking through when he was
done-
and Joe had been gently but persistently firm all week about him
sitting
down and getting this paper done. As it represented 40% of the final
grade
for the class, skipping it wasn't an option. And yet the longer Chris
sat
with the books in front of him, the less they made sense and the more
he
wanted to hurl them off the table as a waste of time. Studying meant
nothing. A diploma, someway off in the future meant nothing. David
was still
gone. He was still Chris Someone Or Other, and not the person he'd
thought
he was at all. What did anything matter next to that?
Except getting Joe convinced that the paper was done, before he drove
them
both insane.
Chris got up and went down to the kitchen, picking up his jacket. Joe
was in
the living room, screwdriver in hand, glaring at the contents of the
video
recorder.
"Who was that on the phone?"
"Matthew." Chris pulled his jacket on. "I'm going over there for
a
while, I
won't be long."
"No later than five, you've got a way to go on that paper yet."
"I KNOW...." Chris said irritably. Joe caught his hand and drew him
back,
talking quietly but very firmly.
"Don't talk to me as though I'm being unreasonable or stupid. That
paper
needs to be done, you're not finding it easy, and you need to put in
time on
it now, before you reach last minute panic."
"I'm still taking notes." Chris said bitterly. "I'm TRYING."
"I know you are. And I know you'll do it. Five." He drew Chris down
and
kissed the scowling mouth gently. "I'm glad you're seeing Matthew.
Talk to
him about the hockey this weekend. I think you'd have fun if we went."
"Okay," Chris said, heading out the door. He had no intention of
talking to
Matthew about anything other than the paper. Getting into his car,
he drove
the short distance to Matthew's house and parked in the driveway. He
knocked on the door and got no answer. He then poked the doorbell
four
times in quick succession.
Matthew was deep in a box, papers spread out around him. He was also
doing
battle with two cats who insisted on approving everything that came
out of
the boxes. When the doorbell chimed four times, the two cats
scattered, one
catching Matthew's thigh in her haste to vacate the room.
"Fuck!" he spat, dropping what he had in his hands to head downstairs,
grabbing a tissue on the way to staunch the blood flow. "I'm
COMING!" he
yelled as someone pounded on the door. He was more than ready to
throttle
whoever it was when he opened the door.
"Didn't think you'd - what's wrong?" Chris asked, seeing some blood on
Matthew's leg.
"Did you REALLY need to hit the doorbell?"
"I do when you don't answer when I knock! What happened to your leg?"
"Tiffany got me when the doorbell rang. I'm okay. Come on, I'm still
looking for the paper," Matthew said, starting back upstairs.
Chris closed the door and followed. "You don't know what this
means. I
really appreciate it."
"De nada. Pleasure. It's good to see you back." Matthew sprawled on
the
floor once more in the pile of papers, digging through them. "How was
the
vacation?"
Chris shrugged, his face shuttering over. "Allright."
"Where did you go?"
"Some place Joe knew, up in the hills. It was ok." Chris took a seat
on the
floor, absently petting one of the cats who were cautiously returning
now
the papers once more needed supervision.
Aware of Rolf's instructions- which had been given with enough
emphasis and
clarity that Matthew felt bad about fluffing too much around them-
Matthew
didn't ask any more questions. Instead he ransacked through the
papers until
he found the one he wanted, and grunted as he found the grade on it.
"It was a B plus. Not fantastic, but a decent pass grade."
"That's great, thankyou." Chris, for whom a C was reason enough for
major
celebration, took it with a cursory glance at the grade. Matthew's easy As
were a mystery to him; he'd known Marc and Rolf be seriously
displeased at a
grade that would have thrilled Joe beyond measure had he taken it
home.
Matthew stuffed the rest of the papers back in the box.
"Just change it a bit, ok?"
"It'll be fine, it's a different tutor and it was over a year ago. I
just
need to get through this class and get it over with before Joe starts
talking about summer school."
"I'm getting the same from Marc. Extra credit classes." Matthew
pulled an
expressive face. "Want a drink?"
"No, I need to go." Chris stuffed the paper inside his jacket. Matthew
touched his arm, aware of the tightness in his face.
"Come on. One coke and a game of pool? We haven't played in months."
Chris shook his head without hesitation, already heading downstairs.
"I need to go, Joe'll be waiting."
"It isn't even four yet."
"I told you he was all over me at the moment. He wants this paper
done and
I'm more or less under house arrest anyway. No chance of hockey this
weekend."
"I'm sorry." Matthew said unhappily. Chris shrugged, opening the
front door.
"It happens. Thanks Matt."
"Take care." Matthew called after him. Rolf pulled up on the drive
just as
Chris was turning onto the sidewalk, and wound the window down to
talk to
him briefly. Matthew, watching, saw Chris's face but not a flicker of
a
smile, and he headed quickly for his own car. Rolf got out and
watched him
drive away before he headed up the drive to where Matthew was waiting.
"What brought him here?"
"Asking about a paper he's got due in next term." Matthew changed the
subject quickly, uneasy with it as he always was when wandering
around the
edge of a lie to Rolf. "He looks awful- he said Joe's pretty much got
him
grounded. He still wouldn't say why."
Rolf didn't say why either, just shut the door behind them and headed
for
the kitchen, looking appreciatively at the gleaming floor.
"The place never looks like this when I clean it."
"What DID happen when he disappeared that night?" Matthew asked,
trying a
full out question. Rolf only kissed his forehead as he passed,
opening the
fridge in search of lunch.
"Ask me no questions and I'll tell you no lies. Who happened to your
leg? Get the antiseptic, you can't walk around dripping."
"Tiffany, when Chris used the doorbell. I don't need antiseptic,
it'll stop
soon enough."
"Antiseptic and a band-aid, now please," Rolf said as he pulled out
some
meat and lettuce for a couple of sandwiches.
Matthew knew the tone and went into the bathroom, finding the
requested
items and patching up his leg. He snarled at the bandaid as it was
going to
pull his hair, but left it on and returned to the kitchen.
"Can't we have something better?" he asked, winding his arms around
Rolf and
lying against his back.
"It's too hot outside to eat a large meal. We've got mowing to do
and I'd
rather not be feeling ill the rest of the afternoon. You?"
"What difference does it make?" Matthew said sourly.
Rolf disengaged Matthew's arms and turned around. "Saintly,
remember?" He dropped a kiss on his forehead. "Get us some tea, and the chips
from the
pantry."
"Allright," Matthew said, heading to the pantry.
"Did Chris say anything about this weekend's hockey?" Rolf called
after him,
sucking mayonaise off his fingers. Matthew reappeared, shutting the
pantry
door with his hip.
"Yes. Not coming. He said Joe wouldn't let him."
"Hi Rolf." Joe cast one more look through at the kitchen where Chris had his
books spread across the table, and went into the lounge with the
phone,
shutting the door after him. "If you're asking about those tickets to
the
game on Saturday, I don't think Chris is going to go short of me
dragging
him."
"That's interesting, since he told Matthew you wouldn't let him go."
Rolf
said dryly. "He dropped by here for all of ten minutes."
"Getting him out to go out of the house is hard enough." Joe said
grimly. "Maybe I should drag him out on Saturday."
"I'd guess he thought it was a quick way to get Matthew off his back
without
questions being asked. Want me to cancel the tickets?"
Joe hesitated, then sighed. "Yes please. If he's still hermitting
next week
I'll think about getting heavy, but I don't really want to push him
if he
doesn't want the company. At least he did see Matthew today. Something about
his paper."
"How's that going?"
Joe gave an expressive moan. Rolf laughed.
"Been there, done that, got the t shirt."
"Matthew seems to have cheered him up about it though." Joe said,
sobering. "He sat straight down and got on with it tonight without war being
declared. Monday night I had to sit at the table with him and harass him
through the
whole hour."
"Has he spoken to his mom yet?" Rolf asked gently. Joe grunted,
getting up
and heading for the kitchen door, opening it enough to see Chris.
Head bent,
so absorbed in the notes he was reading that he didn't even look up. Joe
smiled faintly and shut the door again.
"No. She hasn't tried calling again."
"ROOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLF!" Matthew bellowed from upstairs. It wasn't
the I'm
bored, where are you? yell, nor the 'I've lost the .....'. It was the
flat
out 'HELP' yell and Rolf took the stairs several at a time, taking
the phone
with him.
"What's wrong?" Joseph asked on the phone.
Rolf rounded the corner to find Matthew in the closet with a box
about to
fall on the floor. He pushed it back into it's place, pulling
Matthew from
the closet and setting him on the end of the bed.
"Just Matthew trying to balance too much above his head," Rolf
replied,
snapping his fingers and pointing at the bed when Matthew tried to get up.
Matthew flopped down again, lip out.
"I'll leave you to it then." Joe said, sounding amused. "Attic
crisis?"
"Just the closet. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
Rolf broke the connection and looked at Matthew. Who winced.
"I was ONLY trying to get the box back on the shelf."
"You nearly got the box on your head." Rolf pointed out. "What is
it?"
"Just some school stuff I was looking through." Matthew hedged.
"A heavy box of books and papers, right above your head, lifted on
your
own." Rolf folded his arms. "IS that a good idea?"
Matthew looked down at his feet, shuffling them. "Maybe not?"
"There's a step ladder right over there, for that express purpose. USE it
next time?"
"Yes, sir," Matthew mumbled.
Rolf went over and pulled Matthew up, lifting his chin up. "I rather
like
you in one piece," he said before kissing him.
Matthew kissed back passionately. "Will you show me how much you
like me in
one piece?" he asked, seductively.
Rolf kissed him back, feeling himself respond to his little imp. But
he
knew if he let Matthew talk him into some afternoon delight, the lawn
wouldn't get mowed and it was much needed at the close of the mowing
season. He bit playfully at Matthew's lip.
"I'll show you later. We have mowing to do."
"You're worse than a cold shower," Matthew groused easily.
Rolf smiled but pulled him towards the stairs. "Come on, anything
good is
worth waiting for, hmm? Mowing first, we'll get the garden
straightened out
and then we've got all evening."
Matthew trailed him, grimacing. Mowing was NOT his favourite thing.
"Drink?" Joe asked, pulling the fridge open. Chris looked up,
startled, and
pulled some of his notes together.
"Yes please."
"How's it going?" Joe poured fruit juice into glasses, added ice and
put one
on the table in Chris's reach, putting his chilled hand on Chris's
neck. Chris yelped and squirmed away from him.
"Not bad."
"Is this the paper?"
"Yes- just getting it together." Chris shut the books before Joe got
too
interested and picked up his drink. "Can I stop now? Please?"
Joe glanced at the kitchen clock, not unsympathetic. "You can have a
break,
but you need to do another half hour. I don't want you struggling
with this
all weekend, you need some time off."
"I just ASKED for time off." Chris complained, getting up and
stretching.
"QUALITY time off. As in all day. We COULD go to the hockey." Joe
anticipated Chris's scowl and caught him by the back of his belt,
tugging
him over. "What's wrong with hockey?"
"Nothing." Chris wrapped both arms around Joe's neck and shut his
eyes,
cuddling up. "I just want to watch it on tv, on the sofa, with you,
that's
all. We can go to bed when we get tired and watch the rest up there-
no
noise, no cold, no one chattering."
"That's part of the fun, isn't it?" Joe said gently, running his
hands up
and down Chris's back. "You usually have fun with the others."
Chris didn't answer, snuggling closer. Joe didn't push it, just
kicked out
one of the kitchen chairs, sat down and drew Chris onto his lap,
giving his
full attention to holding him. He could understand Chris clinging to
their
seclusion and their security at the moment- Chris was still swinging
unpredictably between withdrawn and clingy, but if it made him feel
better
to keep their free time just for them, Joe could understand. They
remained
close and quiet until Joe's leg started to fall asleep.
"Alright Sunshine, why don't you put in a little more time and we can
wrap
that up for the night?" Joe asked, sliding Chris unwillingly to his
feet
with a groan.
"What's wrong?" Chris asked. "Getting old?" The swat he got
made him laugh
and jump away.
"Respect your elders," Joe said sternly, trying not to laugh.
"Only if the old farts can catch me!" Chris said, running past Joe and
cuffing him on the head, laughing.
Joe tried to get up but his leg wasn't going to cooperate. He sank
back in
the chair, willing his leg to wake up.
Matthew was pushing the lawnmower around the trees while Rolf was
trimming
around the fence and flower beds. He was trying to keep his temper in
check, but he absolutely hated mowing. The grass was either too
short to
tell exactly where he'd been, or too tall for the mower to run
smoothly
through it. Either way it was annoying. When he bumped the third
tree, Rolf
straightened up and Looked. It was a loud Look; Matthew heard it
clearly
without Rolf actually saying a single word. Taking a deep breath, he
turned
the mower off and sat down beside it, running an arm over his
forehead and
huffing away loose pieces of grass.
"It's too HOT for this."
"It'll take another twenty minutes, that's all." Rolf resumed
clipping. Matthew lay down in the grass, muttering. WHOSE twenty minutes?? Left
to
him, the whole garden would be concrete that looked after itself.
Rolf gave
him a moment, then looked over again.
"Come on sport. Up and get that finished, it won't take long."
In a previous life, he'd probably run a team of slaves building the
pyramids
or something. Matthew got up, briefly distracted by thoughts of Rolf
in a
loin cloth, then the mower started and his temper resumed its
deterioration.
He finished up in the far back of the yard, grumbling heavily as he
saw Rolf
heading to the garage with the weed eater. It wasn't fair that
Rolf's job
was over and he was still working, even though he hated trimming far
more
than mowing. Trying to carry the equipment around, keep it level,
and away
from objects not needing to be trimmed, and watching out for the
cord. He'd
sliced through one extension cord and plants too numerous to count,
until
Rolf decided he could handle most of the trimming. As Matthew got
closer to
the side yard he still had to do, he saw the extension cord slithering
across the lawn as Rolf rolled it up from the garage. Taking a quick
look
to make sure Rolf wasn't in view, Matthew sped up and ran over the
end of
the entension cord. The mower didn't protest loudly at all as the
plug was
sliced from the end of the cord. Matthew watched as the shredded
cord slid
slowly towards the garage, then took off for the side yard and waited
for
the yell.
It didn't come. Rolf however did.
Around the corner, with the chewed off plug in hand, stopping
directly in
front of Matthew. He dangled it there, holding it up in mute
accusation like
some Roman tragic hero. Matthew looked at the plug and made his eyes
go as
wide as possible.
"OH.....I-"
his wondering how that could have happened didn't come to fruition. Rolf
turned the mower off, took him away from it and swatted him towards
the
house. Not just one either, but two or three hard swats that vented a
little
of Rolf's more Roman instincts.
"Kitchen corner, right now young man. Move."
Matthew moved, hurriedly, rubbing himself. By the time he reached the
kitchen corner, it was starting to seem like a less brilliant idea.
By the
time Rolf approached the kitchen door, Matthew was starting to wish
he'd
never thought of it. Rolf put the plug down on the kitchen table and
leaned
on it.
"Come here Matthew."
Matthew turned, slowly and unwillingly, and skulked across to him. Rolf
surveyed him with resigned exasperation.
"What on earth possessed you to do that?"
"The mower just went over it," Matthew began, "Maybe I wasn't
looking
where
I was going-"
"Matthew, if this was an accident, you would have told me about it
straight
away!" Rolf interrupted. "Don't even TRY that. WHY did you do
that?"
Matthew fidgeted, flushing still redder. "I HATE mowing!"
"And this was a little gesture of temper to remind me of that, was
it?"
Matthew's head couldn't get any lower. Rolf sighed.
"Have you ANY idea how long it takes to rewire that thing? Well
you're going
to find out, because you're going to do it tomorrow, AFTER your
homework and
before the tv goes on. I thought we had a deal this week?"
Matthew nodded his head slowly.
"The deal was you were going to behave, or you weren't going to the
hockey
match this weekend -"
Matthew looked up quickly, his eyes bright with unshed tears. "I'm
sorry! PLEASE don't take away hockey, please!" he begged, his apology
sincere.
"You know very well that temper tantrums are not something I tolerate,
particularly when it could have caused serious injury to you. The
mower
could have thrown the plug at you, or worse, the cord could have
become
intangled in the mower blades and ripped them off."
"I'm sorry," Matthew said again.
"You need to think through things before you let your temper get the
better
of you. And to make it easy for you when faced with the decision,
you need
only decide between hanging onto your temper, or being paddled for
letting
it get out of control. Get the paddle."
Matthew sniffled and wiped his eyes, walking the few feet to where
they kept
the paddle. He brought it back to Rolf and handed it over, eyes down.
"Pants down, and bend over," Rolf said.
Matthew made quick work of his button and his shorts and underwear
were soon
at his ankles. He took one look at Rolf, hoping for absolution, but
it
didn't come. He bent over slowly.
Rolf pulled Matthew's shirt up, out of the way, and placed his hand on
Matthew's back. Raising the paddle up, he brought it down with a
resounding
crack across the white flesh presented to him.
Matthew jumped, nearly standing up. He worked hard to swallow the
involuntary yell that leapt up his throat, shutting his eyes tight
for the
next swat.
Rolf landed six hard swats before stopping to ask "Will there be any
more
fits of temper?"
Matthew swallowed several times before he could croak out "No, sir."
"Pants up and corner then," Rolf said.
Matthew quickly stood up, pulling his pants into place quickly,
diving for
the safety of the corner, rubbing at the fire on his seat. He worked
hard
for several minutes not to sob, the firey sting fading into throbbing
that
he could handle.
"I think you're done." Joe said, taking the last of the chops off the
grill. "Want to eat outside?"
Chris came gladly to take his plate. Joe picked up his, glancing back
at the
piles of books and papers on the table.
"Leave your paper and the notes out; I'll check through after we
clean up."
"It's ok, it's going allright now." Chris headed for a spot on the
porch
steps, not looking at him.
"I always look." Joe took a seat on the step above him. "Did
Matthew
help?"
"A lot. He had some good notes." Chris said with his mouth full.
They ate and left the washing up to enjoy the last of the sun in the
garden,
then Chris did his nightly clean up of the kitchen and Joe picked up
the
papers Chris had left out, taking them into the living room with him. Several pages of the notes were in Matthew's slanting scrawl, other
pages in
Chris's painstaking handwriting, but the opening two pages of the
paper were
undisputably good- Matthew's influence had clearly been very strong. In
fact, reading through, Joe suspected his input had probably been a
little
more than usually he'd be happy with: Chris's research was always
thorough
and careful but the insights were not something he would have gained
without
someone directing his attention. Although, this once, Joe did nothing
but
think silent appreciation at Matthew for his kindness. Chris
hesitated in
the doorway and Joe glanced up, putting the papers on the table.
"Looks good. Matthew gave you a lot of help, didn't he?"
"I really needed it." Chris said uncomfortably. Joe saw the
discomfort and
held out a hand in sympathy, waiting until Chris came into reach.
"You CAN do it. You always have done before, there's nothing wrong in
asking
for help when things get hard. And Matthew can help you a lot more
with this
kind of stuff than I can."
Chris didn't answer. Just curled up with his head under Joe's chin and
stayed there, still and quiet.
Matthew zipped into his management class just before the professor
walked in
and shut the door behind him. He sank down into his chair and opened
his
coke, then his bag of M&Ms, then his notebook. Without his caffeine
and
sugar, he'd be dead asleep within five minutes.
The professor laid down his stack of papers and surveyed the room,
mentally
taking attendance. After making a couple of checks, he pulled out
his
book.
"Today we're going to go over what your final project entails.
Before that,
we need to cover chapter seventeen, beginning on page 236. You
should have
covered this over the weekend."
Matthew turned to the correct page and tried to follow along. It was
Friday
afternoon, sitting was still not comfortable, and he was dying to get
home
and start the weekend. There remained only one evening and one
morning to
get through before the hockey match.
"That's it." The professor said finally, shutting his file.
"Before
you go-
a few reminders I have to make to you as a graduating class. Your
final
project. I'll go over what it contains in a moment, but there are a
few
guidelines you MUST be aware of before you even begin." He leaned on
his
desk, looking over the class. "Firstly, the deadline. That is un
negotiable,
there is NO way around it, there will be NO accepted excuses. The
project
MUST be submitted by three pm on the 23rd of June, to me, and you
must get a
signed receipt from me that I've received it before the deadline. I
will be
in my office all that day to accept them as they come in. Second
point. The
University will NOT tolerate plagiarism in any way, shape or form,
from any
of its students at any time. Any student found infringing those
regulations
in any work that contributes to their degree will be stripped of that
degree. This includes, claiming outside sources as your own,
colluding with
other students in the presentation of work without acknowledging them,
giving work to other students to copy or reproduce as their own, or
submitting another student's work as your own. And do not assume the
professors here won't notice- we've read all the sources, you'd be
amazed
what we remember, it is not a risk worth taking. Thirdly-"
Matthew didn't even hear the third point. His heart started to
thump. When
the professor released them, he quickly grabbed his copy of the final
project and headed out the door in mid panic, certain he was going to
lose
his degree when he was so close to finishing it, not to mention what
would
happen to Chris. He headed directly to the library, hoping to find
Chris
hard at work. After twenty minutes of frantic searching through every
corner of the large building, he sat down, resting his head in his
hands.
He could see Chris turning in the paper, and the two of them leaving
the
campus for summer break. They'd sell back their books, hit the road
and
plan on having a fun time. Then, about two days later, they'd both
receive
a phone call, asking them to come see the Dean. Both of them had
been there
before, and been told in no uncertain terms they weren't wanted back
there,
by the Dean or either of their respective partners. They'd show up,
be
ushered in, and the Dean would say, in no uncertain terms, you're
finished
here. Classes are finished. Degrees are finished. Their futures
were
finished. Matthew could continue working in his firm, but only be
able to
do all the peon work, the backbreaking piddly stuff that no one else
wanted
to do. Chris, well, he wouldn't even be able to get a job at a gas
station! He peeled himself away from the nightmare with an effort, got up and
headed
for the hallway where he could use his phone. There was NO question
about
this; he had to get the paper back and get Chris to destroy any
copies he'd
made of it, immediately, for both their sakes, and put this down to
temporary insanity.
Chris's cell phone was turned off. Swearing quietly, Matthew headed
for the
office and tried turning his charm full blast onto the secretary, who
found
Chris's timetable on the computer and identified the class he was in. Matthew thanked her, took his books and headed to the English
classroom,
taking a seat outside the door. Chris's English professor liked the sound of her own voice. The class
had
run a good ten minutes over time and Matthew was somewhat numbed from
sitting on a cold floor when the door finally opened. He got to his
feet and
waited, spotting Chris at the back of the group, clearly uninspired by
whatever the class had been about, judging by his expression. Matthew
grabbed his arm, pulling him to one side and walking him towards the
outside
door, out of anyone else's earshot.
"I need a word with you."
"What? Don't pull me around!" Chris yanked his arm out of Matthew's.
Matthew
opened the outside door and waited, looking at him pleadingly enough
that
Chris grudgingly followed.
"What?"
"That paper I gave you. My economics professor just gave us a lecture
on the
college rules to graduate, I didn't think about what they'd make of
plagiarism." Matthew said as calmly as he could. "I'd lose my degree
and so
would you if you handed in a copied paper-"
"Matthew, it's a minor class paper, it's a different tutor and over a
year
since you handed that paper in- no one's going to know."
"That paper contributes part of my grades for the degree, if I give
it to
you I WILL lose my degree if it's found out." Matthew said
sharply. "I'm not
going to take that risk Chris, I've worked way too long and too hard
for
this."
"The paper's due in on Monday." Chris pointed out, glowering at
him. "What
do you expect me to do about that?"
"Ask for an extension." Matthew said briefly, "I'm sorry. But I
need
that
paper back right now. I'll drive you home and-"
"Forget it." Chris shouldered his bag and headed down the corridor
towards
the front door. "If I ask for an extension Joe'll go nuts, I can't. I
need
the paper, you agreed, you're freaking now for no good reason, just
chill
Matthew. It'll be fine, it's not a big deal."
"CHRIS, it's my paper, I want it back!" Matthew snapped, following him
outside. Chris waved across the carpark and Matthew saw Joe sitting
in his
car, clearly waiting. That precluded either fight or argument. Chris
gave
him another, slightly less aggressive look, but carried on walking.
"It'll be ok, I'll give it back to you on Monday."
There was nothing else to do but watch him cross the car park and
climb into
the car. Joe waved and the car turned towards the main road. Matthew
stood
for a long time, trying to think, then got into his own car. Frustrated,
upset, scared, he sat for a while, staring at the dashboard and
trying to
think of any number of ideas- from heading for the mall and trying to
find
Marc, to heading for Joe and Chris's house and trying to take the
paper
while he was there. He'd very nearly decided on Marc, when he
accepted what
he already knew Marc would advise, put away his cellphone and turned
the car
engine over. He headed out of the main gates, hesitated only a
second, and
then turned towards town and Rolf's office.
He found a parking spot in the carpark and headed inside. Once up to
Rolf's
floor, he stepped off the elevator and into the large and spacious
front
office. He walked up to the desk, finding an unfamiliar face.
"Hi. I'm looking for Rolf."
"He's at lunch. Was he expecting you?"
"No, thanks," Matthew said, heading back to the elevator.
"May I tell him who you are?" the receptionist asked, standing up.
"It's okay," Matthew said, stepping onto the elevator before the
receptionist could ask him another question. "Daggone it," Matthew
said,
slumping against the side of the elevator. "No doubt he's eating
with a
client and doesn't want to be disturbed."
Matthew looked at his watched and decided he should head on to work. He was
already two hours later than normal, and he'd not even had lunch yet.
Picking up McDeath's for lunch, he headed to the office. He turned
his IM
on as he unpacked his Big Mac. MArc not so much popped as pounced,
even the
bleep on the IM sounded severe.
MONSTERMUNCH: WHERE have you been? School finished two hours ago!
TIGGERMC: McDonalds.
MONSTERMUNCH: That did NOT take two hours young man
TIGGERMC: The drive thru does.
MONSTERMUNCH: NOT funny.
TIGGERMC: A little bit funny?
MONSTERMUNCH: WHERE were you? Or do I need to talk to Rolf?
TIGGERMC: :P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P
TIGGERMC: I went to SEE Rolf. He was having lunch with a client so I
missed
him.
MONSTERMUNCH: What's wrong??
TIGGERMC: Just a school thing I wanted to talk about.
MONSTERMUNCH: Yuh huh. This is ME remember?? What's up? And say the
sky and
your butt is toast.
Matthew smiled in spite of himself. Then sighed and typed.
TIGGERMC: I've got a BIIIIIIIIIIG problem. You know Chris was
struggling
with that paper?
MONSTERMUNCH: Yes
TIGGERMC: He came and got some notes from me from the essay I did
last year,
and he asked if I'd give him my essay
MONSTERMUNCH: .......why....?
TIGGERMC: To copy?
Matthew typed it in and sat back, wincing. Marc's reply took a moment
to
come back, but when it did, Marc's shock was evident.
MONSTERMUNCH: WHY would you and he think THAT was a good idea?????!
TIGGERMC: He was stuck on the paper, he couldn't do it.
MONSTERMUNCH: And THAT's a reason to help him cheat?? HE has to earn
his
grades the same way you did!
Which was true. The phone rang and Matthew picked it up, not sorry to
have
someone less authoritative to talk to.
"Matthew here, can I help you?"
"Hey sport. Were you looking for me?"
Out of the frying pan into the fire. Matthew sat back, ignoring Marc
who
impatient of delay was elipsing across the screen.
"Sort of."
"I thought so. The receptionist told me, five ten, huge green eyes,
extremely cute......"
"Extremely cute WHAT?" Matthew demanded. Rolf laughed.
"Let's say I thought, yep I already date that guy. What brought you
over
here? You had classes until twelve didn't you? If I'd known you
wanted to
have lunch with me I'd have waited for you."
"No...no, I didn't have lunch plans. It was a spur of the moment
thing."
"Well, I'm sorry I missed you then. I'm always up for a spur of the
moment
lunch with my favorite brat," Rolf said, leaning back in his chair.
"I'd better be your ONLY brat," Matthew replied.
"You can bank on that, sweetheart. Is there anything wrong?" Rolf
asked
after a pause.
Matthew sighed. He was looking at the screen, and Marc who was
making death
threats, in between posts telling his secretary to leave him alone
and for
the phone to quit ringing.
"I have a....problem.....and I needed your input on it," Matthew
finally
said.
"What kind of problem?" Rolf asked, instantly wanting to help.
"The kind of problem I'd rather not go into over the phone. Are you
coming
right home tonight?"
"Yes, I am. We don't need to talk before then?"
"No, it's okay. I'll just see you when I get home."
"Alright love. I'll see you in a couple of hours." Rolf hung up the
phone
and immediately called his secretary to reschedule a meeting he for
5pm for
another day. He didn't want Matthew feeling badly for changing his
schedule, but whatever it was that was bothering Matthew, it was far
more
important than a client meeting.
He wrapped up as early as he could and headed home, unable not to
worry on what Matthew wanted to tell him. He'd seemed fine that
morning- maybe it was something at work- hopefully NOT a speeding or
parking ticket- trying not to think about it, Rolf fed the small
army of cats who cornered him in the kitchen, and wandered into the
garden. He heard Matthew's car pull onto the drive not long after
five. That was wrong for a start, Matthew rarely came home on time,
especially with a difficult discussion ahead- this was not looking
good. Rolf got up and leaned in the kitchen doorway, waiting until
Matthew came into the kitchen. Matthew gave him a half smile and a
brief kiss, heading for the fridge. Rolf watched him pull a bottle
of water out and bolt it, waiting. Matthew shut the fridge and ran
the bottle over his forehead, then headed back towards the door.
"I'm going to take a shower-"
"Come talk to me."
Matthew gave him a semi trapped look. Rolf held a hand out to him
and waited until slowly, Matthew came to him and took the
outstretched hand, trailing him into the garden and to the top of
the porch steps.
It was one of their favourite perches, above the flowers that lined
the porch, shaded from the heat of the afternoon sun. Matthew took
his seat, looking down at his hands. Rolf sat down beside him.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there at lunchtime."
"It's ok." Matthew said without looking up. "It was just an
impulse."
Rolf waited. Then ran a hand gently down Matthew's back.
"What is it?"
Matthew took a deep breath and lifted his head, looking at the
garden and not Rolf.
"I've got a problem. And I guess I did something stupid, I just
didn't THINK about it being stupid until class today."
"Allright, slow down." Rolf interrupted, breaking with experience
into a flow of self recrimination. "Start at the beginning, what
happened?"
"Chris was having trouble with that paper, it was driving him mad
and he sounded really upset about it. He came over to ask me for
help and I offered to give him the notes- he asked to copy the
essay, it's a year old, it's a different professor- I said ok. Then
in class today the professor was talking about the regulations to
graduate and any plagiarism at all, any, means losing the degree- it
would be both me AND Chris. So I talked to Chris and he-" Matthew
hesitated.
"Wouldn't give you the paper back." Rolf finished quietly. Matthew
nodded, risking a quick look at him.
"He CAN'T copy it. I shouldn't have given it to him, but he was SO
upset, I know he's having a hard time at the moment and I wanted to
help!"
"I know. We'll sort this out." Rolf put an arm around Matthew's
shoulders and pulled him close.
"I DID know about the plagiarism thing, I just didn't think about it
until class today. He CAN'T turn that paper in, it just-"
"No, he mustn't." Rolf said matter of factly. "I'm going to talk
to
Joe and-"
"Rolf NO...." Matthew pleaded, panic deepening. Rolf shook his head.
"Definitely. It's no good Chris being angry with you, he shouldn't
have asked you in the first place, any more than you should have
given it to him. And we'll talk about that later, but the first
thing we need to do is get your paper back and see to it that
Chris's copy of it is destroyed. I'm going to call Joe now and we'll
go over after dinner to get the paper."
Matthew nodded slowly, somewhere between still more anxious at the
thought of Chris's reaction and relief that things were back in
hand. Rolf, whatever else he might do, would stop this disaster
progressing any further. Rolf got up, taking the forgotten bottle of
water and draining it.
"Get yourself that shower and make a salad."
He picked up the phone as he walked through the kitchen and Matthew
heard the study door shut.
He slowly climbed the stairs and headed into the bathroom, wondering
what
Joe was going to make of this. Chris had been through hell, and he
knew it,
and knew this wasn't going to help anything. If Chris had ONLY given
Matthew the paper when he asked.
Rolf settled down in the chair, not looking forward to this phone
call. He
dialed the phone, hoping to catch Joe before they ate.
"Hello, Joseph Robertson."
"Hi, Joe, how are you?"
"Hey Rolf, just fine."
"I hope I didn't catch you in the middle of dinner," Rolf said,
sitting
back.
"Oh, no. I'm just now starting to get things out to make it with. Chris is
still going strong on his paper and I didn't want to disturb him. What's
up?"
"Well," Rolf said, sighing, "that's what I wanted to talk to you
about
anyway."
"What? Chris's paper?" Joe asked, lowering his voice so Chris
wouldn't
overhear.
"Yes. When he came over for the notes, he took more than that. He
took
Matthew's actual essay."
"WHAT?" Joe said in shock. "When did Matthew realise this? HOW
did he
get
it?"
"No no, Matthew gave it to him. It was a mutual arrangement- Chris
asked for
the paper and Matthew in a misguided moment gave it to him. Now he's
been
reminded of the college rules on plagiarism and panicked. He did
approach
Chris earlier today and ask for the paper back and for Chris to destroy any
copies of it, but I'm afraid Chris refused. Matthew then came to tell
me, as
for his AND Chris's sake the paper needs to be returned."
Joe didn't answer for a moment. Then sighed.
"I thought the paper had a lot of Matthew in it- I just thought
Matthew had
given him a lot of help, I didn't realise he was copying verbatim.
I'm sorry
Rolf."
"Matthew knew better than to have given him the paper." Rolf said
grimly. "It was a mutual mistake."
"No, you mustn't blame Matthew too much." Joe said at once. "It's
very hard
to say no to Chris about anything right now, if I'd been a little less
sympathetic I'd have chased up the Matthewisms I'd seen in the paper
and
stopped all this yesterday. Chris WILL return the paper and I'll see
to it
that he destroys all his notes and starts the entire paper again; he
won't
endanger Matthew's degree in any way shape or form, you have my word
on
that. I'm very sorry that he risked it in in the first place."
"As you said, Chris hasn't had the best time lately, and I can see
how this
happened with very little thinking on either part. Does Chris have
enough
time to get the paper written on his own?"
"I don't know," Joseph said wearily. "It's due on Monday, and it
isn't a
simple two pages of writing. There's actual facts that need to be
written
about. But it will have to be, in order for Chris to pass this
class."
"I have a suggestion then," Rolf said.
"Yes?"
"Matthew did, and does, want to help Chris. Chris needs and would
appreciate the help. I think Matthew should give up tomorrow in order to
help get Chris back on the right track."
"Right," Joe said with a small hint of a smile. "Chris would need
help with
the research, and outlining the paper. Then he can concentrate on
simply
writing it himself. That will basically be his own work."
"I agree. That time spent with Chris should be beneficial to both
boys, and
serve as punishment for not thinking, as well as losing the hockey
match
tomorrow night."
"Ouch, Rolf."
"He was already on thin ice, don't worry," Rolf said, laughing. Then
he
sobered. "How about we drive over after dinner, and we'll get the
paper. That way, Chris will have some uninterrupted time tonight to get
started on
it, if he has time."
"Thanks, Rolf. That sounds like a good plan, though after our
discussion,
I'm not sure how much time will remain. See you later." Joe hung up
the
phone, concentrating on dinner.
Rolf took the phone back to the kitchen where Matthew, with very
little
interest or care, was throwing together a salad. His look towards
Rolf was
nervous and definitely unhappy. Rolf put the phone back and took a
packet of
chicken out of the fridge.
"It's allright. I spoke to Joe, we'll go over after dinner and
collect your
paper and then we'll discuss your part in this. You did the right
thing in
telling me, we're going to get this sorted out."
Chris still had his head down over his paper when Joe went into the
kitchen,
although he didn't miss the quick shuffle of papers as he opened the
door. He pulled a chair out at the table, took the pen out of Chris's hand
and
moved all the papers out of Chris's reach, seeing his eyes widen.
"I just had a phonecall from Rolf."
He didn't need to say anything further. Chris went scarlet, from chin
to
hairline. Joe held out a hand and Chris silently reached over,
sorting out a
stapled wadge of typed sheets which he handed to Joe. Joe skimmed the
first
sheet, then sorted through Chris's notes until he found the paper in
progress, comparing the two. Then he looked back at Chris.
"Allright. I'd like to hear your explanation for this Christopher."
Chris looked at the table, not answering. Joe laid the papers in a
neat pile
and leaned on the table, steepling his hands.
"Does that mean that you don't have one?"
"I couldn't write it." Chris muttered. Joe shook his head.
"Yes, you could. You just didn't really try. I'd like to hear your
explanation please. As to why you chose to cheat yourself, and me,
and the
school- and everyone else who will turn in that paper and earn their
degree
honestly. And to endanger Matthew's degree because you didn't want to
put in
the work that was your responsibility."
Chris couldn't get any redder. Joe waited, not intending to give him
an easy
way out of this.
"I wasn't endangering Matthew's degree, he gave me the paper!" Chris
spat,
anger the first emotion he could handle.
"Whether Matthew gave you that paper or you stole it from him,
copying it
WILL endanger both his and YOUR degrees," Joe said sharply. "Do you
not
realize that they have computer programs designed to detect copies? That
even if the paper is a year or two old, that it can still be found in
the
database?"
"They do not!" Chris said hotly.
"There's an article in the paper then that you need to read. But
that is
STILL beside the point. WHY did you think turning in Matthew's paper
as
your own would be a good idea?"
"I told you, I couldn't do it!"
"If that was really true Christopher, I would expect you to do the
honest
thing and fail the paper. AND retake the class since if you genuinely
can't
do the work you clearly need the repetition! I did NOT think you would
consider that an acceptable reason to cheat!"
Joe paused, looking at Chris's face and wondering with some concern
if Chris
really understood why it was that plagiarism was wrong at all. If he
didn't
understand that then until he did, this discussion was not going to
successfully move in any direction. Gentling his voice and tone, he
phrased
the question more simply, watching Chris's face.
"Why IS cheating wrong?"
Chris shrugged one shoulder, a scowl starting to take over his lips
and
eyes.
"I don't want to talk about it- you're going to go mad anyway, just
get on
with it, I don't care."
"Oh no." Joe sat back in his chair, pulled Chris out of his chair and
over
to his lap. Chris struggled, but Joe wrapped both arms around him,
holding
him where he was.
"We ARE going to talk about it and you DO care, you don't get out of
it that
easily young man. You care very much, about how much danger you put
Matthew
in AND about how unhappy I am with you because of this and you ARE
going to
work with me to fix this. You don't just get to shrug it off. Now I
want to
hear from you WHY cheating is wrong. Explain that to me."
Chris wrenched, twisting in his arms until Joe swatted him, once and
hard. Then he stilled but his voice was bitter and angry enough to make it
clear
his defiance was merely diverting to another channel, not abating.
"YOU explain! The college is anal, MATTHEW's anal, it's only ONE
paper and
EVERYONE does it!"
"'Everyone' can do what they like." Joe pointed out.
Chris bucked against him, coming out with the one word he knew Joe
loathed
among all others.
"WHATEVER! Whatever whatever what FUCKING ever!"
Joe held him still, refusing to rise to the tone or the bait. He knew
Chris
in a rage: trying to placate him just led to the tide ebbing and
rebuilding
later. The only solution was to allow him to build to an explosion
and make
it a controlled detonation. And be ready to pick up the pieces
afterwards.
"I'm still waiting for an answer." he said calmly.
"You'll be waiting FORFUCKINGEVER!" Chris spat back, pulling against
Joe's
arms. "GET OFF ME!"
"Not a chance." Joe said matter of factly, wrapping his arms more
securely
around him. Chris threw all his energy into fighting for a moment
with all
his strength and stamina, then Joe felt the fury boil up and
overflow. Chris
burst into tears and hunched away from him, the shouting dimming down
to
incoherent sounds through his sobs.
"Get OFF me- go away-"
"No, I don't think so." Joe said gently, not releasing his grip.
"I'm
still
waiting for an answer."
Chris stayed where he was, hunched as far away as he could get and
his voice
sounded entirely different as the sobbing grew more intense, eerily
younger
and higher.
"I want David..... I want David...."
Joe shut his eyes and his throat tightened. Then he turned Chris
around and
pulled him into his chest, holding on until Chris curled up against
him,
sobbing hard. Joe held him and stroked his hair, pushing it back off
his
forehead with the ongoing swell of concern and sympathy. This underlay
everything. It was only a few weeks, the grief was still raw, Chris's
world
was in pieces. Joe vividly remembered Chris trying to explain to him,
several times, the feeling of having the world ripped out from under
his
feet, of nothing he'd believed in being true, of the whole world
suddenly in
a different place and in a different light, leaving him lost and
feeling
betrayed. Lied to. And he had no doubt that to Chris, right now
nothing was
more insignificant than a paper on economics.
But they'd talked about this several times, and Chris HAD to keep
hold of
his schoolwork- once that got out of control he would never catch up
again
and he'd very rapidly lose the rest of his sense of structure and
security-
his fragile self esteem- any motivation to get out of bed in the
morning. He
HAD to hang onto that, even if it took brute force to make him until
he was
past the worst of this. Joe ached for him, but there was no
alternative: he
was going to have to see this through for Chris, even if Chris right
now
couldn't understand why.
He peeled Chris gently away when his sobbing began to quieten,
running a
gentle thumb over his eyes.
"I'm STILL waiting for that answer."
Chris's tears promptly redoubled but Joe shook his head, putting him
on his
feet and taking him to the sink. He soaked a teatowel under the tap
and ran
it over Chris's face and neck, then filled a glass with water and
handed it
to him, talking quietly but firmly.
"Tell me Chris. Why is cheating wrong?"
"Because it is." Chris said unsteadily. "It just is."
"No, you're going to have to try." Joe leaned against the sink and
looked at
him, waiting. Chris took a deep shuddering breath and surrendered. Joe never
gave up, he would win eventually, surrender was quicker, easier and
far less
exhausting.
"Because it's - unfair?"
"Why?"
"Because it's getting unfair marks- competing against people who did
the
work and deserved the marks-"
"And?"
Chris took another breath and a long, unsteady gulp at the water.
"It's cheap. I should have done the work, it's pretending I have and
that
I've passed the class myself."
He looked whiter than a sheet. Joe put an arm around his shoulders and
pulled his head against his chest, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Good. That would make all the work you've done up to now, all the
effort
and struggle you've put in- count for nothing because your final
degree
wouldn't have been fairly earned. All your life you wouldn't think of
it
with any pride, you'd look back and think Matthew passed that class
for you.
There's also the sense in which you deceived and you lied to me
Chris."
Chris didn't respond. Joe gently held him off, waiting until Chris
gave him
eye contact.
"You made me think you would do this paper fairly, and when we talked
about
how hard you were finding it and you promised me you'd try, you
didn't keep
your word and you let me think you had."
Chris was out of tears for the time being. "I didn't mean to lie to
you
that way. I wasn't wanting to cheat. Matthew just had the paper,
and I
took it, intending to change mine. He...he just used the right
words. I'm
sorry."
"This is a very serious offence, Chris. It's not just a simple case of
cheating, or lying. Everything you've worked so hard for could have
disappeared in an instant. And knowing you, you'd feel one hundred
percent
responsible for the same thing if Matthew would have been thrown out
of
school. I'm not going to let something like that happen to you if I
can
help it at all."
Chris nodded, unable to speak.
"I'm going to make it a simple decision for you in the future. You're going
to avoid cheating to avoid a spanking from me. And if I have to
spank for
this in the future, the spanking you're about to get will pale into
insignificance. Is that clear?"
"Yes, sir," Chris said, and meaning it.
"Go get my belt."
Those words sucked every bit of air and sound from the room. It
seemed like
an hour later that Chris was able to breathe in, and the sound of his
bare
foot coming off the floor was almost deafening. He walked upstairs
and to
their closet, finding it in the usual place. He swallowed hard, still
unable to cry again, though he knew he'd be doing that as soon as the
first
lick landed. The soft leather had such a biting sting.
Joe was downstairs, his head spinning almost as much as Chris' was. This
was such a serious offence that a spanking was inevitable, and if it
weren't
for current circumstances, Chris would have been given more than one,
as
well as having his world reduced to home and school for a long time.
Joe
needed to deliver a lesson, but it had to be done carefully.
Mention of the belt itself always drove home the message that Chris
had made
a royal mistake. It was saved for big lessons, and this one
definitely fit
the bill. Joe knew what it did to Chris, because he'd been there
before. He remembered being sent to get the leather, being absolutely certain
you'd
never do whatever it was again, and wishing desperately that cows and
other
animals that were used to make leather never existed. He remembered
having
trouble finding a belt, tears making it nearly impossible. He knew
the
courage it took, and the growing up that was done between finding the
belt,
and making your way back to the person that requested it. His
reverie was
interrupted when Chris made it back to the kitchen, handing over the
belt
wordlessly. Joe wanted to do nothing more than hug his partner until
the
look of mute misery was gone, but that was not going to help.
"Pull your pants down please, and put your hands on the counter."
Chris did as he was requested, his shorts and underwear in a pile
around his
feet, his hands on the counter. He backed up a step when Joe pulled
him,
and felt chills up his back when Joe's hand pulled his shirt out of
the way,
holding it in the small of his back. He stood, his stomach in knots,
waiting for the pronouncement or first lick.
"Twenty licks, Chris. You keep your hands on that counter, and you
remember
WHY cheating is bad. Understood?" Joe sometimes wondered how he got
his
voice to sound so stern when he was feeling less than able to be that
way.
"Yes," Chris said, his voice starting to crack.
Joe doubled the belt up and brought it crashing down on Chris' bare
bottom. Chris' head snapped up and he moaned as a bright red line of fire
developed
across the formerly white flesh. The second lick made Chris lift his
right
leg, trying to put out the fire with movement.
Chris continued to moan, his cries going up in volume with each lick,
dancing around to lesson the flames. On the tenth lick, he could
stand it
no longer and stood up, hands going back to rub furiously. Joe gave
him
just a moment, before telling him to get back into position and stay
there.
Chris pulled his hands away from his bottom with great effort and put
them
back on the counter. He sobbed once before the eleventh lick landed
and he
howled again.
His hands went back a couple more times, and he never stood quite
still, but
he made it through all twenty licks. The instant that the twentieth landed,
he shot up, hands trying to rub out the incredible sting without
making it
hurt worse, which was hard. It took him a minute to get over the
last,
stinging swat, and when he could catch his breath, he dove into Joe's
arms,
his pants still around his ankles.
Joe held him for several minutes, letting the cries settle from the
shocking, painful ones to the I'm so pitiful and I need a hug ones,
before
he reached down to pull Chris' clothes back into place, eliciting a
few
wiggles and moans.
The doorbell ringing just made Chris burrow closer. Joe held him with
one
arm and put the belt out of sight before he towed Chris with him to
the
front door, insisting when Chris hung back. Rolf had Matthew's hand
and
Matthew looked equally unhappy and unwilling. The look on his face
when he
saw Chris was still more unhappy. Joe let Chris go with a quiet,
"Paper please. And ALL the notes. Come in Rolf."
Chris moved hurriedly. Rolf drew Matthew with him into the kitchen
where
they watched Chris gather up the entire pile of paper, with his and
Matthew's writing all over it. He handed Matthew's typed paper to Joe
and
fumbled for several intensely uncomfortable minutes to separate his
notes
from Matthew's. Joe took Matthew's notes from him and handed the
entire pile
to Rolf, then took the remainder of the notes and tore them into
several
pieces, dropping them into the bin.
"Is that all of them?" he asked Matthew.
Matthew couldn't have known or cared what was there and what was
missing no
matter how hard he tried right now, but he glanced through the pile
and
nodded anyway, dying to get out from under Joe's eye and away from
Chris's
obvious misery, knowing well that Chris would be desperate for them
to go.
"Coffee?" Joe asked Rolf.
Say no, say no, Matthew silently pleaded. He thanked God when Rolf
shook his
head.
"Not tonight thanks. Thankyou for straightening this out. I don't
think I
need to say that Matthew and I will see to it that he doesn't do
anything
quite so reckless again."
Matthew flushed and dropped his head, but felt Joe's hand brush his
back, a
brief touch of comfort echoed in his eyes when Matthew risked a glance
upwards.
"I know you just wanted to help."
"That was not a good way to do it." Rolf said wryly.
"Matthew?"
"I'm sorry." Matthew said awkwardly, trying to look between Joe and
Chris.
"I shouldn't have said yes."
Chris didn't answer, despite Joe's look at him. Joe grimaced at Rolf
but
sounded perfectly assertive.
"Christopher."
Chris looked on the brink of running for cover. Joe took his hand,
keeping
hold of it, but Chris pulled away, dodged past Rolf and ran upstairs.
They
all heard the slam of the bedroom door.
"Sorry." Joe said apologetically.
"I can see he's still not himself." Rolf said with sympathy,
"It's
allright
Joe."
"He owes you both an apology and you WILL be getting it," Joe glanced
up the
stairs, looking rueful. "Just probably not tonight."
"We'll see you tomorrow. Have a good night," Rolf said, heading out
to the
truck, Matthew in tow.
"What's happening tomorrow?" Matthew asked hesitantly as they got
into a
truck. Rolf gave him a stern look, pulling the keys out of his pocket.
"Not hockey for a start. I'll bring you back tomorrow morning and
you'll
spend your Saturday helping Chris put together the notes for this
paper so
he's got some hope of submitting it by Monday- as it IS partly your
fault he
doesn't have anything done."
"Rooooooolf....." Matthew said plaintively. "I don't know what to
say
to
him, he wouldn't even talk to me!"
"He needs the company as much as anything else." Rolf put the truck
into
gear and pulled out into the traffic, refusing to be understanding
about it. "And he's GOT to do the paper, he'll appreciate any help he can get by
tomorrow morning. I've got no doubt Joe will be supervising anyway."
Great. A day of schoolwork, RIGHT under Joe's watchful eye, and not
even his
OWN schoolwork. And no hockey. Matthew sank into his seat, seriously
depressed. Forty eight hours HARD work to behave sufficiently- it
shouldn't
have been that difficult! It was fate, as sure as something came up
that he
REALLY needed to be good for, it became impossible. This was NOT a
problem a
grown man ought to be wrestling with. Filled with the frustrations and
exasperations of a rational, independent, perfectly capable adult,
Matthew
got out of the truck on their drive way, looked Rolf right in the eye-
and
deflated rapidly. Rolf nodded at the house.
They were met by a sea of cats and Matthew picked up the nearest one,
but
Rolf took it out of his hands.
"Upstairs, get yourself ready for bed."
"It's not even EIGHT yet!" Matthew protested. "I only-"
"What part of that didn't you understand?" Rolf inquired, waiting.
Matthew
sighed and headed upstairs. Slowly. He wasn't sure what awaited him.
He quickly brushed his teeth and washed his face, changing into his
pajamas. He took a long look outside, hearing some kids playing down the
street when
he opened the window for a moment. Shutting the window, he turned to
head
over to the bed, finding Rolf just walking in the door.
Rolf took a seat on the bed. "Come here little one."
Matthew walked slowly over to Rolf, stopping in between his legs. Rolf took
hold of his hands and looked up at him.
"I know you had a hard time saying no to Chris. I know you wanted to
help
him. But that does not change the fact that you know it was a very
stupid
thing to do. You put both Chris' and your future in jeopardy. I'm
not
saying class, I'm saying future. Getting thrown out of school would
have
left you very little choice on where you would go and finish up your
degrees. Most colleges have students vying for admission, and
knowing that
you cheated to get ahead would leave most with no desire to accept
you. No
degree, no CPA certificate. Then what would you do?"
Matthew's tears overflowed as the stark reality of what could have
happened
hit him. He shook his head quickly, unable to answer.
"You haven't put in all this time to come away with nothing. Neither
has
Chris. But your desire to help, and Chris' desire to take a short
cut could
have made all that worthless. How would you be helping Chris by
letting him
risk you both? How is it helping him even letting him use your grades
and
your learning to gain his degree? He has to earn it himself with all
the
work and all the effort that involves, otherwise he HASN'T earned it-
it
isn't an earned reward, and it makes a mockery then of you and every
other
student who DID work for their qualification." Rolf said
quietly. "And quite
apart from that, you KNOW- cheating in any shape or form is wrong.
It's
always unacceptable. Isn't it?"
Matthew nodded, pulling himself together enough to find a voice.
"Yes sir."
"Now you told me you knew the rules on plagiarism."
"Yes-" Matthew admitted. "I knew it- I didn't think about when
Chris
asked,
it didn't seem important until that professor talked about it-"
Matthew stopped, well aware he was sunk and beyond argument. Rolf tugged at his hand as his head went down.
"Then you need a clear reminder to keep those rules in mind and to
stick by
them. They're the rules the college set and you have to keep them
while
you're studying, they are not for you to bend or forget as you want. And as
a CPA you'll be governed by another set of professional rules which
you will
have to adhere to with the same respect, for the same reason- that
you're in
a position of trust. I expect you to KEEP to those rules, and to be
worthy
of that trust, every day, no matter what the situation, no matter what
happens. I expect that of you and I will NOT tolerate anything less
from
you. Is that clear Matthew?"
THAT went deep. Matthew swallowed hard, managing to keep eye contact
and to
get out a "Yes sir" with sincerity.
Rolf didn't waste any more time. He pulled Matthew down across his
left leg
and quickly yanked down the shorts to mid thigh. Matthew lost his
footing
and was balanced precariously across the thigh, resting on his
elbows, head
up trying to turn to see Rolf's face. He gave that up when the first
swat
landed, feeling Rolf's left hand curl tighter around his middle.
The assault continued with increasing force, Matthew very quick to
agree
he'd never look at a past assignment for anyone, much less hand
anything
over. But no matter what he said, Rolf didn't stop. Matthew decided
it was
because what he was thinking and wanting to say came out complete
garbage
when tried, due to the crying and yelling he was doing as the swats
continued to rain down unabated.
Just when Matthew was certain there wasn't an inch of skin left on his
bottom, Rolf's hand stopped falling. Matthew gulped on the air,
sliding to
his knees and very thankful to be out of that embarrassing, and highly
uncomfortable position.
Rolf brushed the hair from Matthew's hot head, then helped him to
stand a
moment later, pulling his shorts into place.
"Go wash up, quickly."
Matthew went into the bathroom, rubbing at the flames, then turned
the sink on and splashed his face before blowing his nose and wiping his face
as dry
as he could.
Rolf was still sitting on the edge of the bed when he came back, the
bed was
turned down and Rolf held out his arms. Matthew buried himself in
them,
wiping the last of the tears on Rolf's shoulder.
"I'm sorry."
"I know. And I'm not upset with you, you did the right thing. You
came and
told me as soon as you realised, and we got this fixed before any
harm was
done. That was the best thing you could have done for you, and to
protect
Chris, no matter what he thinks at the moment. He's not in a position
to
make good judgements about anything much."
Matthew took a deep breath, calmed and comforted. And still curious.
"Rolf? What DID happen? This wasn't just David."
"That's for Chris to tell you, when and if he ever feels he wants
to." Rolf
said calmly. "I don't need to tell you not to bug him for it. But he
needs a
lot of patience and a lot of kindness, and he's going to need it for
quite
some time."
It was clear Rolf didn't intend to be any more specific. Matthew
thought
about that, still leaning against him, unable not to wonder. Rolf
held him
for a while, feeling the last of his hicoughs calm, then kissed the
top of
his head and tipped him gently onto the bed. "Settle down sweetheart.
We'll
be going over to Joe and Chris's early tomorrow, Chris has a LOT of
work to
make up."
"It's too earlyyyyyy......" Matthew said pathetically. Rolf Looked at
him.
It took only a moment before Matthew got under the covers.
"Better." Rolf commented, getting up. Matthew accepted the goodnight
kiss
without much attempt at good grace. Rolf took no notice. He left the
door
open as he went downstairs and Matthew knew perfectly well he'd be
listening.
The kids were still playing outside.
Chris was face down on the bed when Joe opened their bedroom door. He didn't
look around. Joe sat down beside him and turned him over, bringing a
white,
tearstained and angry face up to his.
"That was NOT an acceptable way to leave the room. OR to leave a
conversation."
Chris had a serious try at rolling over again. Joe pulled him upright,
keeping firm hold of his hand.
"I'm talking to you and you were quite rude enough downstairs without
adding
to it. Not to mention slamming the door. You owe Rolf and Matthew an
apology
and it WILL be made tomorrow morning when they come over."
Chris had a try at rolling over again, and Joe let him. Then he
dropped a
very firm and well placed swat across his bottom. THAT got Chris'
attention
in a hurry.
"Stand up please."
Chris quickly stood up, anxious to get out of the line of fire.
"Come here," Joe said in a very unpromising tone.
Chris swallowed his anger with effort, but knew his bottom couldn't
take any
more abuse. He walked around the bed to Joe, somewhere between
defiant,
angry and bitterly ashamed. Joe pushed his chin up, eyes just as
uncompromising.
"You ARE going to get through this. I'd far rather have your
cooperation,
but I WILL push you forward with brute force if I have to."
Chris ducked his head into Joe's shoulder, the sobs starting again. Joe
pulled him down into his lap and rocked him silently, giving strength
by
just being there. When Chris calmed down again, Joe pulled back the
covers
and got Chris settled.
"I'll be up in fifteen minutes with dinner, stay put."
Chris curled up under the covers and struggled with the last of his
tears. Staying here, hidden, for the rest of his natural life, seemed like a
very
good idea. Except Joe was back almost instantly, carrying a tray, his
voice
heartlessly upbeat.
"Sit up."
No. Not wanting to eat, not wanting to talk, not wanting to even
think about
the horrible mess today and this week and this month had been, Chris
didn't
move. Joe swatted him briskly. Through the covers it barely
registered, but
Chris jumped and twisted out of the way, giving his partner a look of
heartfelt reproach. Joe took no notice. Just sat on the bed beside
him, made
him hold the bowl of soup he offered, and nagged cheerfully and
persistently
until Chris ate. He bullied still more heartlessly until he further
ate the
sandwiches and drank the milk he was presented with, oblivious to all
threats of being sick. He further demanded Chris showered and got
himself
ready for bed while he dealt with the dishes, and within minutes
Chris found
himself with an audience in the bathroom, hustling him through his
ablutions
until he was back in bed, too hassled to do anything but curl up in
Joe's
arms, thankful of the respite. And feeling calmer. Marginally. There
were
still several issues on his mind and the worst of it came bubbling up
now,
mixed with panic.
"What am I going to do about this paper?"
"Write it." Joe said simply. "Yes, you can. You've got two days.
Matthew's
coming over tomorrow morning, early, he's going to spend the day
helping you
get together notes and a plan, and all you have to do on Sunday is
get it
written up."
"I haven't got time!" Chris said in horror, "I CAN'T write it
like
that!"
"Christopher stop. You CAN get it done and you're going to." Joe
said, not
unkindly but inflexibly. "You're going to have to. I'm sorry it's
going to
be a hard two days but that's down to your mistake, you're going to
have to
take the consequences. And if necessary, you hand in as much as you
can get
done and the notes, and hope that gets you a pass grade. And if not,
then
you'll take the class. They're all workable options."
"I don't WANT to retake the class!"
"You may have to." Joe said with absolute finality. "But we'll
cross
that
bridge when we come to it."
"Rolf'll be mad at me...." problem one catered for, problem two
followed
fast on it's trail. Chris struggled around to see Joe's face, eyes
filling
with panic yet again.
"I asked for that paper, Matthew could have lost his degree-"
"Yes. And you owe him- and Matthew- an apology." Joe said matter of
factly.
"I can't...I can't face him," Chris tried again.
"You owe it to them. You owe it to yourself to face up to your
mistakes. And just for the record? Rolf knows it was a momentary lack of
judgement,
same with Matthew. He doesn't hate you, and he's not mad at you. You can
put that right out of your mind."
Chris gave up on that line of questioning. "Are YOU mad at me?" he
asked
tentatively.
"No, of course not. You made a mistake, and you're going to work on
fixing
it. We've taken care of that now. Speaking of now, I think it's
time you
tried to sleep," Joe said, sitting up.
"Staaaaaaaaaaay," Chris begged.
"Roll over, I'll rub your back for a few minutes," Joseph said,
compromising.
Chris stretched out, happy to be on his stomach. Soon, Joe's hands
were
expertly relieving the tension, and tickling gently at the same
time. Chris
shivered, enjoying the touch. All too soon, Joe stood up.
"More?"
"No sweetheart, you need to sleep. I'll see you in the morning." Joe
leaned
over to turn off the light and Chris heard him heading downstairs,
leaving
him alone, mostly comforted and physically sated enough to fall almost
immediately asleep.
Joe's alarm went off at some appalling hour for a Saturday morning
and for a
moment Chris thought it was a mistake. Mumbling protest he buried
himself
further under Joe and waited, hearing the familiar thunk of Joe's
hand on
top of the clock. But instead of settling back to sleep, Joe pushed
the
covers back, finding Chris's hand and dragging him, unwillingly, to
his
feet.
"Shower."
Still mostly asleep, Chris found himself half way to the bathroom
before he
saw the clock.
"It's only six thirty!"
"And I'd guess Rolf and Matthew will be here at seven thirty, you've
got a
lot to do today." Joe said firmly, pushing him the rest of the way in
and
shutting the door.
He made breakfast while Chris stumbled into his clothes, unhappy, uncooperative and complaining
until Joe left the bacon grilling where it
was,
turned his still sleepy lover around and swatted the seat of his
shorts,
smartly enough to get Chris's eyes fully open and watering as the
remains of
yesterday's belting was fully reawoken.
"YOU were the one who got yourself into this situation," Joe said sternly before Chris got his breath back. "I am NOT going to listen to any more grouching about it, OR put up with any time wasted on anything other than doing your absolute best to get this paper done as it should be. It has to be done and you ARE going to do it, even if that means I have to stand over you from now until Sunday evening."
And he would. Chris nodded unhappily and jumped at Joe's tone.
"I BEG your pardon?"
Ouch.
Chris amended the nod hastily, somewhat shocked. "Yes sir."
"Sit down. And I'll add too, Chris, if there is just ONE word or look
from
you that makes Matthew at ALL uncomfortable about being here, I'll
send him
home and you can work on your own."
Joe put a plate in front of him and sat down. Chris's first instinct
was
relief as he remembered that Matthew was staying- that would make the
day a
good deal less tedious- and then the relief was followed with more
than a
little uncertainty. It had been clear from Matthew's face yesterday
evening-
Chris was sure he wasn't the only one in trouble over this affair. And he'd
refused to return the paper, which Rolf must have been made aware of. Joe
watched Chris's face, seeing him go hot and cold as the implications
sank
in, but gave him no chance to debate it, just saying firmly,
"Eat your breakfast."
Chris choked down what he could, extremely uncomfortable, tired, and
really
not looking forward to the rest of the day. He though going into an
army
boot camp had to be better than what he was going to face. As soon as
he was
finished, Joe had him help clean up the kitchen, then they went into
the
dining room and Joseph spread out clean paper, put the relevant books
on the
table, Chris' sheet of paper on what was expected in the paper, and
settled
Chris down. Half an hour later, the front doorbell rang.
Joseph went to get it. "Good morning. Come in," Joe said, opening the door, admitting a bleary eyed Matthew and Rolf.
"Good morning," Rolf said.
"Hi," Matthew managed quietly.
"Can I get you coffee, anything?" Joseph offered.
"Thanks, but I'll have to decline again. I've got a meeting at
eight," Rolf
said.
"Just a moment then," Joe said, moving towards the dining room.
Chris heard him coming, wanting to melt into the chair.
"Rolf needs to leave. You need to aplogise to him before he goes,"
Joseph
said.
Chris stood up and moved slowly towards the living room where Matthew
and
Rolf were waiting, horribly aware of Rolf's eyes on him and wondering
whether he'd do as his stomach was suggesting and bring this ghastly
situation to an abrupt halt by throwing up.
Rolf had to be at least twenty feet tall.
Hands shaking, Chris made himself look up, all the way up and took a
deep
breath. Rolf returned the look impassively, neither questioning nor
reproaching.
"I'm sorry I asked for the paper to copy. And not giving it back when
Matthew asked." Chris swallowed as Rolf's eyes were still on him,
still
unreadable. "And I'm sorry I ran out yesterday in the middle of a
conversation."
Knowing Matthew and the expectations he lived with, Chris had a fair
idea of
the dim view Rolf would take of that. But he just nodded, gravely
polite.
"Thankyou Chris. I hope you two manage to make a good start on the
paper
today."
Chris flushed still darker and muttered an approximation of thanks,
aware of
Joe's eyes still on him. Matthew looked supremely uncomfortable and
visibly
winced as Chris turned to him.
"I'm sorry I pressured you into giving me the paper- he didn't want
to." Chris added to Rolf, somewhat defiantly. "He only did it because I
got upset
and I kept on at him. It was my fault."
"Matthew knew better, no matter what the situation." Rolf said
calmly. "But
thankyou. Matthew, I'll pick you up when you're finished."
Matthew silently pleaded with Rolf to not leave him, but the pleas
went
unanswered. The door shut firmly.
"Into the dining room with you two," Joe said, herding them in front
of him. "Matthew, can I get you anything to drink?"
"Coke?" Matthew tried.
"Too early. Juice or water."
"Nothing, thanks," Matthew said.
Chris took a seat, still flushed from the living room.
Joseph went around the table where he could face the two young
men. "You
both know why you're here, a passing moment of insanity on both your
parts. Matthew, I know you want to help, and I'm sure Chris is grateful to
have it. This is a pretty big project, but I think with the two of you working
together, it can be done. I'm going to be in and out of here, and I
expect
to see great strides during the course of the day. If I see that
work isn't
getting done, Matthew you'll go home and Chris, you can finish the
paper
yourself. If I hear any arguments, I'll spank first and ask questions
later - BOTH of you," Joseph said, keeping eye contact with each
young man
to bring home his point.
"Matthew, your job today is to help Chris draw up the outline of his
paper. Help with the research, and if either of you need the computer, come
find me
and I'll get that set up for you. You are NOT, and I repeat, NOT to
help
him write anything. Your notes, if you take any, are to be facts
only. If
I find ANYTHING, overhear ANYTHING, even suspect ANYTHING, I will
spank you
both. Do I make myself....perfectly....clear?" Joe finished slowly,
watching both young men.
"Yes, sir," Chris said. Matthew followed suit.
"You leave this table only with my permission. Get started," Joseph
finished, walking from the room.
There was dead silence for a moment after he left, then Matthew
rolled his
eyes at Chris, grabbing up the nearest book.
"Sheesh, is he taking lessons?"
"If I pass one more test I become a black belt." Joe said from the
kitchen. "And you don't want any demonstrations. Get on with it Matthew."
There was another moment's shocked silence, then Chris turned the
paper with
the essay directions towards Matthew and pointed out the key words. When Joe
came in a few minutes later, they were both buried in books,
scribbling
fast.
They worked diligently and well for the next two hours, while the
stack of
notes grew and Matthew, with several nervous glances towards Joe,
pointed
out suggestions and themes to Chris. Joe, understanding his dilemma,
kept an
ear out and joined in, explaining and discussing with them but
leaving Chris
to make notes from the conversation unprompted. At ten o clock he
sent them
both for a jog around the block, leaving the notes where they were and
standing in the doorway, watch in hand to wait for them. Not daring
to take
more than the five minutes allotted, and more than ready for the
break,
Chris and Matthew made the run without the breath to spare for
talking and
Joe took them straight back to the dining room, providing them with water
and fruit and a brisk order to carry on.
By eleven thirty, both were fidgeting, the paper and the books were
rapidly
losing all grains of interest and both were long since squirming on
the hard
wooden chairs. Chris had one brief try at settling with his books on
the
floor but Joe sent him straight back to his seat in tones Chris
didn't feel
inclined to argue with. Matthew, bored to death with the figures he
was
extracting from the graphs in his book, heard Joe go upstairs and
dropped
his pencil with a sigh of relief, stretching his aching fingers.
"This SUCKS."
"You're not kidding." Chris dropped his own pencil and got up,
stretching
and rubbing. "There aren't even cushions in here- there's no way I
can do
two days of this."
"Why do they make the texts so boring?" Matthew agreed. "It's
like
they TRY
to write them to be as dull as possible."
"Maths IS boring."
"Not all maths." Matthew amended. "Just tax and economics."
Chris glanced up with a flash of a smile. "Want to see if we can get
on the
computer? A few research articles, a few rounds of free cell?"
Joe's footfall on the stairs made him sit down hurriedly and both
boys lean
over their texts, although neither was taking in much. A moment later,
Matthew felt a nudge and glanced down to see the sheet of paper being
slid
towards him with a tic tac toe grid drawn on it. Matthew grinned,
scribbled
a cross and slid it back, returning to his book.
"Is this the tax version?"
"Absolutely." Chris cast a quick look at the door, inscribed a naught
and
slid it back. "Note the international symbolism."
Joe wandered through a moment later, picked up their water glasses and
paused to look over their shoulders. Matthew quickly slipped the grid
inside
one of his books and handed it over to Chris, not looking up.
"Try page 15."
Chris accepted the book, still transcribing notes. Joe left the room
and he
stifled his giggles, taking the grid out of the book, adding to the
game and
sliding it back.
Matthew won the first game, then drew another grid on the same sheet
of
paper. They continued to pass it back and forth several times, the
game
becoming more intense as both grew more involved and more
competitive, then
Chris, seeing Joe come in the doorway, failed to get it out of sight
in time
and Joe leaned across the table to take it from his hand, face
extremely
grim.
Two minutes later, two fair heads were ducked over books, both boys
writing
industriously, and trying hard not to wriggle on tingling backsides.
They ate lunch in the garden under Joe's eagle eyed supervision for
the
twenty minutes they were allowed, then Joe sent them back to the
dining room
and this time took his own work with him, settling on the other side
of the
table.
With him there, stifling every attempt to move, talk, do anything
other than
work, Matthew and Chris gave up and focused as best they could on the
task
at hand. Tired, depressed and bored beyond imagining, Matthew looked
up a
little past three pm and shook out his cramped writing hand, shooting
Joe a
look of appeal.
"Can we have a break? Please?"
"In half an hour." Joe said without looking up. Matthew sighed and
swiftly
returned to work as Joe Looked at him. By half past three they had
all the
notes Chris would need to complete the paper, and Joe listened, a
large and
imposing presence across the table while Matthew helped Chris to put
together an essay plan and identified the quotes and diagrams needed
for
each section.
They were almost finished at four pm when the doorbell rang. Joe got up to answer it and returned with Rolf, who looked with interest at the pile of paper covering the table.
"How is it going?"
"We got all the notes done." Matthew said, slumping back in his
chair. "And
the essay plan. AND the set up. And I got repetative strain injury."
"They were pretty good." Joe said, ignoring that. "Apart from the
tic
tac
toe contest."
Rolf raised his eyebrows at Matthew, who flushed but saw the twinkle
underneath the look.
"If you're done then, get your things together."
"Thanks." Chris said as Matthew got up. "I might actually get
this in
on
time now."
"De nada." Matthew gave Chris a wink and followed Rolf into the hall
where
Joe gave him a quick hug and the compass and calculator he'd
confiscated a
few hours earlier as too tempting to be on the desk.
"Thankyou. You did a good job, I think he'll get it written without
much
problem now. Have a good evening."
Yeah right. Matthew trailed Rolf onto the drive. Rolf's usual ideas on
evenings when he was grounded from something involved a distinct lack
of tv
and an early bedtime. He had no doubt it would be great fun.
"Allright," Joe said, collecting the books and notes into a pile on
the
dining room table and taking the pencil out of Chris's hand. "Leave
it for
today, you've got a lot done. Five or six hours tomorrow and you'll
get it
written up and ready to hand in. Pick a video and get it set up, I'll
make
some coffee."
That raised the first real smile he'd had from Chris in 24 hours.
Chris went into the living room and pulled out Shrek, a video that
never
failed to make him laugh at some point. He headed upstairs and got
into his
more comfortable pajamas, and when he came down Joe was already on the
couch. Chris snuggled up on his side, leaning against Joe, and
enjoyed the
last of his day. He was relieved that the paper would be done, on
his own,
and on time, and with Matthew's help, he stood a very good chance of a
passing grade. It was the first time he'd felt good about anything to
do
with school in several weeks.
Rolf headed towards home, then turned right halfway there.
Matthew couldn't help but be curious. "Where are we going?"
Rolf bit back a grin and LOOKED at Matthew, certain he'd be found
out. He
was surprised when Matthew subsided against the seat. Thank goodness
the
restaurant was only another mile down the road. He pulled into the
parking
lot, parking right next to Michael's car.
"Takeout?" Matthew ventured.
"Yes. I'm taking you out to eat. I thought you'd be hungry before
the end
of the game," Rolf said, a twinkle in his eye.
The car registered, Rolf's words registered, and the grin Matthew had
threatened to split his face in two.
~The End~