Tom "Dirka Dirka" Huffman
19 yrs old
November 13th, 1988 - May 12th, 2008
http://www.myspace.com/hurryno1slookin
I am in Iraq
Enjoys being racist and killing towelheads in Iraq
Let me start by saying that I don't want anyone to think I have a death-wish or that I'm suicidal. Suicide is never an answer and I have no plans in the works on dying. Everyone knows I am fiercely patriotic and that I can't wait to fight for my country. So when you're reading this, keep that in mind. There are people I want to read this and there are people who I'm afraid to have read this, but I need to get this out. Most of my friends know that I'm going into the service before the end of this year. Most of them also know that means I'm going to be going to Iraq. I have a wierd feeling about it. Don't get me wrong, I want to go. I can't wait to go. But sometimes I get this feeling that when I go, I won't come back alive. Sometimes I have dreams about it. Sometimes when I'm spacing out, not really thinking about anything, it pops up. The wierd thing is that I'm totally OK with it. It doesn't scare me. After what recently happened in my life, I realized that some of my original hopes were baseless, and that I wont have much to come back to. Now, I find myself not caring if I do or don't come back.... I don't cry alot, but after this weekend I find myself doing everything I can to fight back tears. Truth is, having nothing and/or no one to come home to scares me alot. It doesn't affect my decision, I am still going, I am still going to be combat infantry, and i am still going to fight for my country. I know that me saying this stuff might make some people uncomfortable, and could possibly hurt others, but I've been keeping it inside me and I can't anymore. I don't know who to tell, so I said "Fuck it," and told everyone. I don't like how I feel at all. Maybe I'm just shaken up from everything that has happened. Maybe I'll get over feeling like this in a day, or a week or a month. Maybe circumstances will change...maybe they wont. I know now that holding things inside yourself and not opening up makes everything worse, and solves nothing so let's just say I'm reaching out. Things are tough for me right now. I don't think that feeling like this is healthy at all. Tell me what you think...?
"Private Huffman..you are hereby released from duty" May 12th, 2008
My name is Tom. I graduated from Sheldon.
I love my guns and my truck.
I big ass a 82' Toyota 4x4 and you're fuckin jealous...
even though it has no air conditioning and
I'm in the US ARMY. I'm INFANTRY. And I love Courtney.
She's my lil pepper :] She's stuck with me
thru thick and thin, and I know she'll still be mine
even when I'm in Iraqistan (haha) and she'll still be
mine when I get home.
A message from his girl:
to my baby: i am so destroyed now that youre gone its a huge hole in my heart and mind i cant even believe it i keep thinking back to our first night at sloughouse where we saw tons of shooting stars and really connected in so many ways and when i came to fort carson the first time where we decided that we were soulmates and that we had never loved anyone the way we love eachother.. and the day we decided to get married that day was going to come next august :/ you changed my life so much and the others around you when i came to fort carson the last time to hold your hand and be with you as you passed on..i know that you felt me i know that you heard me...and i know that you were happy that i was there just like we always said "i want to die in your arms" i know a lot of your wishes never came true like going to iraq, me getting pregnant with Brayden and Aimee, and getting married on base.. the wish of being in my arms came true and that was the least i could do you are my soulmate forever... and are always going to be a huge part of me and i will honor your parents wishes and name my first born child after you babe.. i LOVE you will all of my heart --your "pepper"
